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#Krisso, for the last time.
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| Because you always show me that there remains a purity, even within the darkness of this cityTitle ripped off from Ayu's song, JEWEL, and it's totally relevant to this post, btw. XDD You'll see.
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Even under the grey, square sky, that is filled with all too many kinds of unhealthy desires, I still don't lose sight of the light among them - these dreams -, because you always show me that there remains a purity, even within the darkness of this city.
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And that's my interpretation of the first verses of the song, taken out of its poetic form and put into a nice paragraph. XDD
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Autumn '07
Ayu appeared in "au MUSIC FIESTA" as a guest yesterday, and prized as one of the most fashionable artists in Japan, her attire confirmed Autumn '07's trends to be leaning on the semi-boyish side. (After all, you can't trust anything until Ayu says so. XDD)
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She's even cut her hair short like a month ago. Although I thought her hair looked better all short and flowy, rather than with these stiff curls.
I'm just saying this though, because I saw a few articles on this soon-to-hit boyish or manly look (it hasn't quite yet, since Ayu leads all the time) and I didn't quite believe it until I saw AYU doing it. I just thought that it was interesting; what does it show? It shows that Ayu rules the world of course. =DD
Not that I'm going to cut my hair short or anything. I'm *always* manly anyway. I can always be a hippie guy with a mind living back in the 70's and and long swinging hair. XDD
The point of this post is to prove that Ayu is awesome, just because.
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All right, now, away from the fuss on what will be in the HK fashion magazines (that are very slow on the uptake of these things) next week, I shall whiz back into reality.
Which, actually, isn't very real.
In English today, we had to write a short piece, asking "If you could go back in time, *any* time, when and where would you go back to?" That was pretty much the question (although I can't actually remember the wording of it), and people were choosing things like "wanna go back to the 80's, so cool back then man" and "wanna go back to the 70's, awesome music man", or other exotic things like dinosaurs, the moment you were born, reliving summer holidays, etcetra.
Hahaha, and you can so NEVER guess what *I* picked. XDD (Cal got it on his first guess, lol.)
I want to go back to Christmas 2006, and watch the surprise live performance of the song JEWEL by Ayumi Hamasaki in Universal Studios, Osaka.
There are many reasons why I chose this particular live, and one of them is the fact that I have also freaking BEEN to the Universal Studios that exact freaking year and Ayu performed there?!?!?! *utter shock and disappointment* If ONLY I was there during Christmas!!
Also, this live was for free, you see, people didn't need to PAY to watch it, it was only for those that happened to be so damn lucky and coincidentally BE there. The video of the performance showed all the bubbling excitement of people running towards the performance all surprised and giddy. But who wouldn't BE excited? Ayu's concerts and performances always sell out in three hours, all the damn time (AND, those in the Japan-residents-only Ayu Fanclub get a first priority. T__T). This performance for those lucky bastards who happened to be there, was a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity!!
The people were so happy. The camera pans across the audience a bit and they show some couples all happy and stuff; they're celebrating Christmas night in Universal Studios (good choice, it's a really brilliantly pretty place), they're already very happy, and then they get this huge surprise present-- a live performance from Ayu.
Man, I would kill to watch one of those. Even before I saw the video clip of this performance, I'd imagined how AWESOME it simply would be, to watch Ayu perform JEWEL on CHRISTMAS DAY, and to add to the effect, it should be outdoors and SNOWING. If it starts snowing in the middle of the performance, _even better_.
Towards the end of the video, you get to see a woman in the audience with watery eyes, watching Ayu finish off her song with a smile; oh gawd, she was so touched-- I was too, and I wasn't even there. XDD
So, once-in-a-lifetime opportunity; free of charge; great performance-- enough to make you cry; romantic; Ayu; Ayu in a santa GOWN with awesome hair and all; JEWEL; Universal Studios, Osaka; outdoor; Christmas, christmas, christmas; cold but warm on the inside (gawd I LOVE that feeling, it's like drinking warm soup on a cold day, or hot chocolate, if you like (milk tea for me though)); big, happy crowd who are all very supportive and happy to watch Ayu...
... the list of Why This Live Is Awesome can go on and on and on. And this awesomeness is just the reason why I really want to go back to watch it, I was not the least bit half-assed when I answered the question!
And, you know, having to revise for the iGCSE mock exams over Christmas this year just plain sucks. T____T It makes me wanna watch Ayu live even more...
That rounds up what I wrote for English. XDD
#Krisso
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| So close to collapsing in the middle of the road, it wasn't even funny. O_OI had NEVER been so tired in my entire 15 years of life... 0__0
I barely made it back home and before collapsing on a bed, and I vaguely wondered if I was going to wake up.
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I normally go to the gym on Saturdays for half an hour. The gym here's supposedly only allowed for those 16 and older, but I always used to fake it anyway and got in all this time, but then recently they started asking again and again and being really suspiciously about my age. So today, I didn't want to risk it, and instead, went running outside of my residence instead. I made a new playlist in my ipod with 3 songs in it so when I finish running, it would be just a little over 10 minutes.
So I ran, and there was a small slope where I met my dad who happened to be running as well. So I waved and ran with him. I probably ran a bit faster than normal to keep up with my dad.
After one more lap of running, I had to run up the small slope again, and this time, I couldn't bear it. I ended up stopping and putting my upper body's weight onto my knees and just, feeling and hearing my heart banging itself viciously against my ribcage as though it wants to just put a hole in there and come out to bounce on the floor.
I walked up the rest of the slope, suppressing an urge to lay on the ground.
After having to walk up, I had to run this small flat distance that led to a hiking trail. I just ran in, stopped, and started walking back out. By that time, the third and last song had finished and so it marked the end of my running.
But I was literally _dying_ and I knew it. It must have been partly my ipod's fault because my EARS were hurting, of all things... dude, it hurt. My head wasn't doing any better over all because I had this insufferable... migraine; the back of my head hurt, and my spine was hardly supporting my body properly-- I felt the need to slump really often (and fall onto the ground if only I can); my leg muscles weren't doing good either; my heart was STILL threatening to jump out of my chest.
By the time I reached the slope downwards towards my block, I swear, it was the hardest downward slope I've ever, ever, EVER walked. I could hardly carry my own weight, actually, with a migraine, hurting ears, pounding heart, dying muscles, AND, unfocused eyes.
Unfocused eyes-- I was walking down the slope when I looked around at the surroundings and I just felt like there was something in front of my eyes, blocking them from proper vision. I wasn't wearing my glasses from all the sweat, but still, I found myself wondering when my eyesight had worsened to this extent, and whether or not I have one of those bad eye diseases. I wondered if it was night already. I wondered why it suddenly seemed to dim all around.
The lights from the lamp posts glared, really blindingly brightly, but I couldn't be sure. It hurt just to look.
When I was about five metres away from the entrance to my block lobby, I just sat down on this bench outside of my block. I couldn't walk anymore at that time, you see, going down the slope was really hard work, but I didn't really want to collapse in the middle of the road so I held it. Again, I wondered if my vision had really worsened or if it was from exhaustion. After a minute of so of sitting down though, my vision was clearer again and I realised my eyes were unfocused due to exhaustion, and I thought, I have to get back home, quick. 0_0
Getting inside the lift proved to be extremely dangerous though, because the lift lacked proper air circulation-- it's so old, and I swear I couldn't breathe. When I got out, that shared space between the four apartments that were on the same floor wasn't any better. The air was still really bad because it's probably the same air all the time (the only time the air actually MOVES is when someone opens a door) and I managed to fish out the keys from my pocket.
My mum asked me where I went running because she didn't see me in the gym. I answered her but she didn't hear me. I gave up projecting my voice.
By the time I got to my room, my legs ALMOST just gave away before I reached the bed and I felt like I was seriously going to die or just pass out or something. I've never felt so tired in my entire life before; not when I went swimming training, not when I ran the school cross-country, not when I ran the biathlon, not anything. I was lucky I even made it to the bed and just collapsed there for about 10 minutes before waking up again and just laying there for another 5 minutes, and THEN proceed to feel bad about the fact that I was all sweaty and I was on my SISTER'S bed, not my own. (Because I have to climb a ladder to my own and I lacked that energy to do so.) Also, I realised that my sister had a fever 2 days ago and I was so weak at that time that I might have caught something. >.>
Anyway, I'm fine now, thank god. I think I might develop a running-phobia from now on... The headache's subsided, but gosh, if I hadn't sat that to refocus before entering the lift, I might have collapsed IN the lift, which is even worse because no one would know and the doors would close and there'd be even less oxygen.
Sporting when you're someone with such a weak heart like me, is really dangerous. (I've never been the one with good stamina, not even when I trained. In comparison to a normal person, I get tired way too easily.)
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The only good news is though, that I must have lost 2 pounds at least, from that, and I also have very good skin at the moment from the sweating. XD
Okay, not funny.
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I have loads of Japanese worksheets to do. T___T
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I'm watching that Bruce Almighty II tomorrow morning with my mum, and then coming back to do more Japanese worksheets. I hope I can finish, but, I also have Chinese lessons tomorrow. And then I hope to do art homework as well. Arrrgh...
*must be positive*
#Krisso
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| Just popping in...... to say that I ALMOST dug my own grave today by leaving the school WITHOUT my English essay notes with me because I can't possibly write an essay that is due in for tomorrow without them tonight (rushing them during breaks would be too risky.)
Coming out of PE, I didn't need to go back to my locker to put anything back, and so I left without opening the locker, see. I thought something was terribly wrong of me to leave without opening my locker. I just KNEW I forgot something, and racked my brain for that something that I might have overlooked, until suddenly, my english notes flashed across my mind and I gasped in cruel realisation.
Gosh, I could have just collapsed in despair if I had forgotten. I would be so stressed out and worried right now that the frustration would need more than the force of my head banging itself continuously against the tables, the walls, and everything else you headdesk to. I'll be tearing all my hair out in the process and perhaps facepalming as well since the forehead will be in so much pain anyway.
Hmmmm~ but yeah, good thing I remembered, I need to get those "terrible feelings of bad omen" more often so I think deeper about what I might have forgotten-- keep digging my memory for all the possibilities.
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And I just KNOW that I will get muscle pains tomorrow or something from PE today. I will get it on my arms, I will get it on my legs. I mean, I could barely WALK from PE on wednesday and all I did was some slacked-off sprinting. 0_o
I got a 180 beats per minute after-exercise heart rate today. Apparently, that means I'm "poor" in terms of the health of my heart. Oops. (I mean, I used to get 130... my body is deteriorating fast. XDD I knew I must age quicker than the average human, having so much white hair and stuff at this age.)
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Otherwise, I'm coping fine. Ever since I stopped myself from thinking too much, I think life's been better. I'm keepng this up. =D This way, I'm "fighting the good fight". ^___^ *bows* All right, I have... fanfiction... to READ, and english essay to WRITE. Hehe. Should go now, also have a mandarin lesson in like 5 minutes or something. 0_0
I'm not satisfied with how my fanfics are turning out right now, and I don't exactly know EXACTLY what is going to happen next, so I still need to think (and I procrastinating THAT thinking, so yeah... call this a hiatus.)
Hmmm~ sorry guys, CNYRA is the last on my list if it comes to writing. It's Kenny & Kayla, then the RyoSaku challenge that I haven't thought about since ice age. =D Aaah~~ but I kinda wanna submit something nice for voice, too, so... that's loads of commitments. ^_~
#Krisso
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